Best Friends Pop Your Zits and Tell You When Your Roots are Bad.

Fun day with Jen & Al.

We worked out.

Felt soooooo good!

Had dinner with my fam.

Dyed our hair.

Mission accomplished.

7 days til college.

State Fair tomorrow.

Mall day with Erika.

Erikas engagement pictures.

Winona trip this weekend.

Carrie Underwood concert next week.

I am now on a diet...

Not cause I hate myself, but because I realize that I don't want to become ridiculously unhealthy or gain any weight.

I want to lose weight. Not cause I hate where I am at, but because I know where I am at is not healthy for me.

So I will chose to remain vegan, drink lots of water, workout, lift weights, take supplements & such, keep up my appearance, and monitor my weight.

I feel so relieved. I need to follow through with it now.

I am challenging myself because I know I am capable.

Being healthy will work wonders for the rest of my life.

In God I trust.

Somethings Gotta Change.

I hope you're happy.

Truth is all that matters is that we enter Gods kingdom.

Truth also is that isn't attained unless one loves God.

What we choose to do with our life is up to us.

We are free to make mistakes.

We mature.

What is right or wrong is defined by our personal morals, opinions, beliefs, and feelings.

Only in our heart do we know what we truly want.

What others say is mere opinion.

What sucks is when we don't listen and they're right.

Whats awesome is when we do what we think is right and it is right.

So when does one know where to draw the line and when to cross it.

When do we play it safe or risk it all.

The questions linger deep inside us.

Since we don't know an answer: We take a risk.

Risking it all or risking regret.

It makes me wonder: Whats worth risking it all?

Love. Wealth. Happiness. Peace of mind.

Possibly.

We're all trying to find a pill to num the pain.

Pass the pain.

We have no good within ourselves.

We need to pray for help.

I need you so much closer.

just relaxing in allies bed.

its love.

sleepover night? yes!

13 days until UMD.

that is all.

If I had a dick, this is the part where I would say suck it like its 1984 bitches.

Life is like a box of chocolates.

Today I got up at the crack of dawn for work. Slow day to say the least.

Yesterday I cleaned out my room. 19 bags of give away. 6 trash bags of trash... and still counting. I can hardly believe all of that stuff fit in there. I felt so accomplished and relieved. But I should have known.. that it wasn't all roses and daisies. Today I had the epiphany that I had to upload software onto my laptop. Then it hit me. I had no idea where it was and I had most likely thrown it away. Yeah thats where the explicits started to kick in. I came home from work and immediately tore apart my room and all the bags I had packed up. 3 hours later.. Nothing. I still have not found it and I am frustrated beyond measure. Hopefully tonight I can persuade my family to help me search for the little bastard of a cd. Pardon my french. =]

College is 22 days away.

I still have to buy my books & apartment everything, as well as sign up for many things. I have doctor and dentist appointments to attend. Shopping for a wedding gown with my sister. Nit picky things. And a last bit of fun to be had.

To be honest I'm not excited for college. No amount of swisher sweets or bud light could change my mind.

My roommates are.. well.. shitty. Not to judge.. but my first impression of them is not good and both my family and friends share the same impression.

My classes are ridiculously hard. Studying is going to be non stop if I want C's in my classes. And my parents will only fund my education if I have a B plus average.

My pyscho/in love with me ex is going to be there. -- I don't want to see you anymore. I'm just not that strong. I love it when you're here, but I'm better when you're gone.

My besties aren't going to be there. HOLLA JENNAAYNAYY AND ALPAL! I love them with all my heart.

I'm going to miss my family.

I most likely will be broke after first semester due to paying for books, food, apartment furnishings, etc.

However, I am putting my trust in God. This is what I wanted right? Yes.

I wanted independence in a non sheltered environment. I want to stay faithful to God throughout it all. I want to excel when no one believes in me.

This is the part where dreams become reality and when "I want to" and "I'd like to" turns to I CAN.

God is faithful to the end.