Friday, July 16, 2010

im just gonna stand here and watch you burn.

"Reason has always existed, but not always in a reasonable form."

Pete.. this ones for you.


I mean so much to you.
You mean something to me.

Dinner and a show.
On our anniversary.
I feel so set up.
I want our time spent together after breaking up not to be a date... wtf. I'd rather just talk. Stop trying to win me back.
No impressing needed. I already know fully what you are capable.
I know I gave little reason for breaking up.. but its because something doesn't feel right. I'm not happy. You don't make my knees weak. Or perhaps the thought of marriage scares me.
How can one be so sure of something? How do you know when its right? Maybe thats cause I've never felt the right yet. Thats why I had to take action.
I'm sorry it took so long for me to do this. I should have pushed you away sooner. Because I knew months ago. I should have refused your kisses and I should have ran the second I felt that gut feeling that it wasn't right.
Its harsh - But you are just a check list to me. You are just mr. right for a different woman.
I can talk to you for hours and it would be a shame to lose that friendship, but I can't lose my ground or soul.
No chemistry. Sorry maybe you feel it, but not me.
Faking it- Im good at that.
Flirting - a hobby of mine.
Right now I have to trust in God. Give me a month, give yourself a month. Then lets talk. Possibly be friends or whatever God and our hearts will.